On Giving Up Charlie

I quivered back and forth and made the call

You were sitting on my lap just a while ago

Beautiful calm blue tort

Floppy ears and the sweetest touch

All was silent

I made the call.

In the carrier you gently sat

Quivering, like me at first

Then calm as the ocean at night

We set out together.

I walked the longest walk

I spoke to you, asked for forgiveness

‘Remember, mommy and daddy loves you very much…’

Deathly and numb, with my quivering heart

I walked towards the dizzying bright light

As I carried you away from home

As you sat there obediently

Trusting me to keep you safe, always

Trusting my loving hands that will protect you

No noise no matter how many steps I walked further away.

I made the call, I gave you up.

I let them take you back – in two minutes you were gone.

I made the call, sure I made the right call.

But the empty cage at home feels so wrong.

The right is painful, the right brings salty tears

Tears I am glad and also sorry you couldn’t see,

Why I had to give up the sweetest lop there ever will be.

Date: Nov 08th, 2011

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